I've lulled myself into a safe meagre existence, I preferred the chaos of junkiedom, at least it gave me a purpose, a reason to get out of bed in the morning, a hunger to satisfy.
A wise man once said to me,
" Life is the sum total of your experiences, if you have no experiences then you have no life !"
Life keeps going around the same circle, revolving instead of evolving, repeating the same mistakes over and over, I see this clearly, it's safe, it's comfortable, and so so predictable.
It's time to break the cycle, forge a new path, and rediscover the joy of life, but to do this I need to shed this life and search out a new one, sooner rather than later !